Quae nocent, saepe docent

That's some Latin advice along the lines of "bad things happen so we can learn"...I'm not entirely convinced by it...what i find more interesting is the Chinese curse may you have all that you desire.

On the face of it, its a ridiculous curse, having what we desire is the primary goal in life. Only its not ridiculous at all, the only way to destroy your desires in life is to attain them and a life without desires is pointless, when one strives for nothing one ceases to be.

In that regard, anticipation is pure happiness and the only happiness of its kind. Anticipating something that you never inherit leaves it unspoiled, its still painful but less so, its almost painful in a nostalgic way, we can sit and curse how life conspired against us to keep us away from what we wanted without having to face up to the reality that what we wanted wasn't ever going to be enough or more likely we were never capable of maintaining what we wanted.

Its the reason why Christmas Eve is better than Christmas Day, why the split second before a first kiss is more pleasurable than the kiss itself, why Opening Day of the baseball season is the greatest day of the year. In these moments we have nothing but anticipation and they are beautiful, the moments that follow never recapture their beauty so the key to happiness in many ways is to have perpetual wants that are never fulfilled.

For those who are fortunate enough to live to an advanced age, they will sit and think about those desires that remained unfulfilled not those that they had and lost, whether spectacularly or gradually, they can forever revel in unspoiled anticipation.

To lose the will to anticipate therefore is a matter of life and death


blogging this...how very post-modern


jay,
tell my mother i tried, tell her i really, really tried.

sigh

one of those days

you are clearly the most misguided little girl i know

Jay,
people seem strange, when you're a stranger

Possibly my most favouritist lyrics ever ever ever...

"sometimes i dont thrill you//somtimes i think i'll kill you//just dont let me fuck up will you//cos when i need a friend its still you"

sadly it was not enough to clinch victory in my epic jukebox battle...that auld creepy fecker just had more money than i did...darn capitilism

sometimes you just need dinosaur jr...and buddist philosphy from gaby



i heart pretty things double exclaim




"you cant take me anywhere//i'll take you anywhere that you want to go"...i just listened to The Libertines...its not a good album...it has four good songs...five at a push...the latest babyshambles album is actually better...there i said it...still love Up the Bracket tho





these posts are getting more and more non-sensical...sorry laura







jay,



rarely have i missed anything the way i miss Dimitar Berbatov

Sitting in on a Friday night, watching Greys Anatomy...undoubtedly the coolest ive ever felt

"im not saying i dont think she'll EVER be happy without me, i just think she'll grow old and bitter, surround herself with cats and the high point of her day will be when she takes to the her porch and sings showtunes while doing the can can for the benefit of the passing school children to prove that she's still got it."


jay,
i'll believe in anything, you'll believe in anything

Dont draw the ace then fold it

1. I'm only just starting to recover and i had to sleep for a day then spend a day watching one tree hill(yeah thats right) and gilmore girls(again, yeah thats right) to get back to a state when i felt fit to move...never...ever...ever shall a weekend be so sloppy(especially sarah, the messy bastard =] ) again...well it will, but i need to let the battle wounds heal up for a bit first...good, good times though.

2. Laura is moving back to Oxford...carazy...in a rather small number of weeks...good for her though...keep the end of october free for my visit =] (edit: Stop freaking out Laura)

3. "She said we must leave, uproot, erase this//For this is the kind of love that maims us//And I won't be happy 'til somebody looses an eye". I actually LOVE bell X1...and as previously mentioned One Tree Hill and the Gilmore Girls...y'know just in case any of you still thought i was cool...im not...im really not.

4.New plan, we'll never get visas...we're not employable lets be honest(english degree loike) lets hit Stockholm...hit it hard.

5. The title of this blog is a National lyric.I love it.I think too much.I never reach conclusions.This might be one. You see if you're determined that this isnt the ace(i disagree but hey whadda i know?) but say a queen then i would have to fold the queen in order to get the ace cos to take another card while you have the queen in your hand its too big a risk, you'll go bust. So perhap it is time to fold the queen in order to draw the ace. Or the ace is drawn and we folded, which is a good bet ...either way time to step away from the table? ahh heck, my black jack analogy has confused me...who is what card again?


jay,
ive watched you climb, the wrong incline, but what do i know.

Pukkel-what?

a.k.a the horribly self-indulgent blog of "yeah well it was funny if you were there" type things

• "Ahh lisburn road...you sexy mother fucker"
• "save us jeebus"
• "nah we're irish but we love your country"
• "annie, is jay resting his head on your crotch?"//"well yeah he is but he has a nice comfortable head so its ok"//"are you sure, cos kyle's head is on my crotch and im not sure im comfortable with it"
• "william hach motherfucking jeebus...christ"
• "daterape is the action"
• "id give you one for a bottle a coke"
• "i may have scoffed at the time but jams is horribly underused"
• "lads this toothpaste is in capsule form...lads this toothpaste is denture cleaner...my bad"
• "Yo Hetfield...whats the fucking craic...not enough angry truckers for ya...dont think im gonna cheer now...tardy fucker" *angry looks* "well il be off then"
• "Ahh it was just a misunderstanding between me and the laws of physics"
• "and im left stroking myself as usual"
• "gotta remember to stop pulling when you stop sucking...i was talking about the wine"
• we shoulda saved this for yesterday...wait"
• "urm boys...anyone looked at the tent in a while...urm yeah...its fucked...proper fucked...lads"
• "my wine...my baby...MY WINE BABY" *wails*
• "you can take the country outta the boy but you cant take the boy outta the country...i messed that up didnt i?"
• "like shitting out a raccoon"
• "well thats rohypnol for you...gotta get it over with quick"
• "i need a wet wipe and a fresh carlsberg...STAT"
• "all the best songs are secretly about being a greasy paedophile"
• "yeah well we've had six beers and a power nap already"
• "Marvin you stupid fuckhead...im gonna punch you in the pancreas"
• "all you have to do is get her so drunk she falls asleep...that came out wrong"
• "I dreamt i was on top of you last night// oh no you didn't"
• "get er bucked"//"keep er lit"//....yeoooooooo!
• "you know the way theres that wet rain and then that dry rain...this is wet rain"
• "sitting at the back of a field with yer bag of wine...classy...classy as always bradley"
• "there should be some kind of Mr muscle for cock block...wait that came out wrong"

I heart festivals

jay,

i think i may be all grown up

going to belgium...

imma just gonna hide in the back of darkend tents staring intently at my shoes all week

"anything for you//anything i'd do//its shameless"

jAy

Simu-blogging #2- tell your friends

top 5 favourite videos anyone?

1.



because its impossible to watch and not fall in love...and that solitary tear...and the dancing with the mike stand during the outro...and its basically perfect in every way

2.



because it must be nice to say fuck you to everything you hate all at once...and i fancy kurt almost as much as Karen O

3.



because frankly the milk bottle is hi-larious...and its funny in an ironic sort of way when then band all shrug when graham leaves

4.



meh i dunno i just like it...thats some mighty fine analysis right there.

5.



cos when i was younger(urm yeah younger) all i really wanted was to run around in bars drinking bottles of heineken, smoking in a detached fashion, wearing skinny leather jackets with similarly ice-cool folks.

this was a terrible idea, embedding from youtube is a pain in the beeeehind and i dont really like music videos that much.

jay,
i hate it when you talk like that

my big brown eyes, my way of life and all the headache pills i took to try and get away from you

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when i die tragically young this will be the picture they put "Jonathan Duane Bradley 1988-today" underneath


jay,

"hooks are for wimps and choruses are gay"

• I have been married to Maykay(in my head loike) for sixteen consecutive months...making this the longest relationship(both in my head and in reality) that i have ever been able to sustain...kudos for me.

• i like flight of the conchords so much more than you...not that i like the show more than you like the show(i dont know who you are, you might be a majassive fan), i mean i like the show more than i like you(i can say this without fear of contradiction).

• the red sox have twenty five players on their roster, there are 26 letters in the alphabet. On the red sox roster there are currently 10 players whose christian name begins with the letter J. Conclusions...i need more to with my time.

other pointless observations:

• when northern irish girls smoke it looks horrible...when foreign girls smoke it looks intriguing in a lets spend our lives together type way...why is that exactly?

• some people are really rather clueless

• my "cheh well i dont care...why would i care" face needs a little work...a lot of work

• i love wearing my imma "skip town outfit" on days when i seriously suspect im gonna give into the temptation to "skip town". i way just turn this into a fashion/psychology blog where i outline the relationship between my psyche and my clothes choices...that would be more interesting to read ayeaffle.

• the link to my flickr in the sidebar over there only seems to work half the time...strange

jay,

biased...everyone is biased...and the moon landing never happened...and its all the russkies fault

at the end of the day...and other cliches

i still love...

jurgen klinsmann

david ginola

nomar garciaparra

teddy sheringham

pedro martinez

johnny damon

brett favre(cos its been soon but some people have done too much to ever dislike)

but not sol campbell(cos he did too much)

and not Robbie keane(cos its too soon)

and i have no idea what any of that means

assistance?

jay,
they dont let you smoke and you cant get drunk//all there is to do is watch these soaps
i told you the owl was retired 'member?

...

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no,



jay,
but just being around you offers me another form of relief
no more owls please

vrrrrrrrrrroooooooooooooooooooom vrooooooooooom, screeeeeeeeeeech

i cant remember what i came to say, the blogger babies thing freaked my out too much

ahh yes



somewhere the head of Dr pepper's marketing campaign is running around in very tight circles repeating "oh shit, oh shit" over and over and over again.




in other new album news, the new conor oberst album is very good...of course i would say that even if it wasnt so what can you really take from that statement...very little i guess.





Jay,
get well soon
{o,o}
)__)
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Twenty things ive yet to do in twenty years

1.Visit Fenway

2.Learn Spanish

3.Visit Asia

4. See Spurs win the league

5. Abolish chunky peanut butter...why make something as great as peanut butter but not make it smooth???

6. Have an article in a publication that isnt...y'know...terrible

7. See Pixies live

8. Live in Berlin

9.Propose to Karen 0

10.Buy any of the 25 members of the 2004 Red Sox a drink...thats right even...nay especially...Mark "saved by the" Bellhorn

11. Live in New Yoik

12. "Get" Jane Austen

13. ******** **** ** **** ** ****

14. Achieve pool playing skills that mean i dont die a little inside when entering a pub with people who im trying to not look a foolish fool infront of.

15.Get surf lessons.

16.Replace my purple converse with the orange trim

17. Make "fetch" happen

18. Get somebody to drink a white russian with me...and find out what a white russian consists of as well i guess

19. Break up a wedding in a graduate-esque fashion

20.Expose the fact that the 2008 baseball season has been such a struggle because coco, lugo, ellsbury and tek are playing an elaborate game of who can suck the most and still get at-bats...im pretty convinced.


jay,
it just makes sense,
{o,o}
)__)
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Vaya con dios Manuel: My Top 5 Manny memories.

...Or how i learned to stop worrying and love Jason Bay.

1.

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"Francisco Rodriguez, trying to get this one to extras for the Angels.Manny trying to end it here.K-Rod sets for the 1-0, he fires swing and a LONG DRIVE TO LEFT! WAY BACK! DEEP INTO THE NIGHT! THREE RUN WALK-OFF HOME RUN, MANNY RAMIREZ!"

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walk-off home run to win the ALCS in '07.

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2. Late September game in the toilet vs MFYs- The ever hateable Miguel Cairo launches one to left of Bronson Arroyo(iirc) Manny goes back and jumps at the wall. Cairo gets the whole way around the bases and is high fiving teammates in the dugout before he realises that Manny caught the ball and is standing in left field in fits of laughter.

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Miguel Cairo looks like someone just ran over his mother

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3. The fact that when Manny was bad...he was very bad. Running down to a hotel bar in San Francisco to watch the highlights of the sox-orioles game still wearing my sox hat.This sparked many a jibe from the many Yankee fans in the bar...this got worse when an oriole player gets a hit to center field and Johnny Damon fields it and goes to throw the back to the infield.Manny dives to his left and cuts off the throw before firing back to the infield himself. To this day no one has been able to work out what he was doing. You had to laugh.

4. Manny races back, makes a basket catch and his momentum carries him towards the stands. He jumps up, high fives a fan he notices is wearing a sox jersey before firing back to second to double off the runner. I have never laughed so hard at anything that happened on a sports field.

5. During a pitching change Manny disappears into the Green monster to relieve himself barely making it back in time for the next pitch.

I shall miss you Manny

almost as much as i will miss mrs manny and manny jr.

"I don't believe in curses" -Manny Ramirez

Now on to rest of the season- Baywatch if you will...urgh.

This is perhaps the most vanilla team in the history of the world. Jason Bay's introductory press conference actually contained the word neat for chrissakes!

J.D Drew and Jason Bay(born in the Land of Bland-Canada)- The Bland Brothers

In fact bar David Ortiz this team is comprised solely of scrappy overachieving white guys. I CALL RACISM.

Heres to a season of productive outs, patient at bats and hustling down the line on ground balls

But il take vanilla if vanilla get results so in the words of one of the crazy mofos that used to inhabit the redsox clubhouse

"We're gonna go on a run...we're gonna win...and we are gonna fucking kick ass starting tonight"- K. Millar

good gawd just please start winning...you're infuriating to watch

Jay,

ortiz;wakefield;timlin;varitek(4/25)

{o,o}

)__)

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POST GAME EDIT- Jed Lowrie have my babies...good sweet mike but i love a walk off